3rd January-Wednesday,
I have been so nervous to write anything in this blog. I’ve used the past few days of 2018 reflecting on my life and new things I want to accomplish this year. I have spent my time speaking to God and telling him all the plans I have. I have visualized everything I want to do – getting better grades, spending time with my family, spending more time with Him & surrounding myself with positive people. I have gotten rid of all the bad vibes and have forgiven people who hurt me.
I got saved earlier last year. Before the time I discovered my new life with Christ, I was a totally different person. I didn’t have any regards for my faith. I would wake up on sunday, get dressed and go to mass,come home and never open a bible. Religion was no biggie for me. I just never cared.
I thought life was all about enjoyment. I was lazy. I only wanted the sweeter part of life. I didn’t want to do chores- just nothing. My grades were suffering. My spiritual life was terrible. My family had a lukewarm relationship with Christ. There was a lot of noise & arguement at home…
Then, 2016 came and I was shocked at what God wanted to do with me. I kept coming across so many people who had this fire and love for Christ. The kind which I longed for. I began to really look at myself and how I had really neglected God and enslaved myself to earthly things. I used to spend so much time on the internet. Peer pressure pushed me to do so many things. I wanted to be accepted by all costs.
I began to look for a way to have a relationship with God. During this time, I had repeated a class because of my poor grades. I lost so many friends and I decided to accept Jesus as my friend. The first thing I did was to remove things that distracted me and caused me to sin. The first was my music. I realized chastity wasn’t only about not having sex, it was about what I thought about, the music I listened to,the books I read & the movies I watched. I got rid of my music first, then my novels. I replaced my music with gospel music and I have to say, I felt so much better. I had the lyrics on my phone so I was able to sing along. Next, I replaced my old novels with better ones. My dad bought me a book by Jason Evert titled “if you really love me”. It is the most interesting book ! It contains 100 questions about dating, kissing , marriage, STD’s and so on.. I really enjoyed reading it. And I have read it over and over 💗
The next thing I did was to download a free bible app & get a bible. I decided to read it every day. I felt my relationship with God grow stronger and I began to love him with all my heart. I wanted to know him more and More .I no longer cared what people thought of me. I prayed my rosary and spoke to God. I had my bad days too when I didn’t find time to pray or read my bible because of school. My relationship with him was shaky. But I asked for more strength. I was craving this relationship more and more. I realized I needed to pray for my family too. I knew a family that prays together, stays together. I asked God to help my family to argue less and seek him more. And, that was what He did. We prayed more and I ask God everyday to give us more strength to do so everyday.
I began to wish I had friends who I could discuss God with. I wanted to talk about Christ with someone. Everyone I tried this with wasn’t very interested. There was a particular day, I came across this particular girl on Instagram. She had this fire and love for Christ. She’s the most amazing person ever ! I went through her Instagram and I realized her younger sister and I were classmates in primary school , and after looking at her blog , I messaged her. I prayed for her and thanked her. She had so much courage to share the word with others and it inspired me. I wanted to message her sister but I didn’t know whether she would remember me. The next day I got a message from her sister and I felt so happy because I love to speak to old friends :’)
I felt so happy about the little reunion and Inspired to start evangelisation. Ezinne gave me so much hope. She made me realize my age doesn’t matter. And I can do evangelism ! How sweet ! I started searching bible passages about evangelism and they really helped to strengthen my relationship with God. My family is okay now, even if we have our bad days too !💓
SO FINALLY, HERE I AM ! SPREADING GOD’S WORD AT 15 ! !
I am SO excited about it and i can’t wait. 2018 has been okay so far and I can’t wait for the challenges & everything ! I hope everyone is doing great 😉 Happy new year !🎈
~~Marypaula
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